Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Just spending some time today to reflect on the "goodness" of Jesus. He is soo good isn't He? He not only answers our prayers, He doesn't answer those which He knows aren't what is best for us. He is always interceding for us to the Father, praying for us in ways which we are wholey unaware. He is our savior, and role model. There is no better example of a Christian than Christ Himself. He is our encourager. Our strong foundation and His name is faithful and true; which I might add is rather comforting to me, seeing as I'm not so faithful and not always the most truthful. He always wants us. He never is fed up and done. He is the mighty pursuer. HE HAS OVERCOME AND HE IS SO SO SO GOOD.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Lord Jesus, please remind me in this moment of your love. Not that "hold hands and bake cupcakes" sorta' love. But that "humble yourself to flesh and blood for the sake of my soul" kinda' love. The love that before the foundations of the earth were laid, You had me in mind love. The long-suffering, patient, grace filled, sacrificial to death on a tree love. For it is simply your nature Jesus, and if it's not too much to ask I'd love to experience more of it. Can I father? Would you bestow, lend and fill me with Your love of liberation. The love which not only has the authority to forgive sins but has the power to enslave one to righteousness. Remind me oh God of this faithful love. You know, the one that says:"Nick I love you whether or not you did or did not do this or that!" And finally awake me from my slumber oh king, revealing that you LOVE ME BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME! For you are good and Your love endures FOREVER.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
So I suppose I haven't posted in so long, due to an abundance to say and a lack of time to say it. I will fallow this up with a longer post which will give me the opportunity to share the splendors of the way Christ is empowering me to pick up my cross each day and seek His glorious face. Yet for now, I would simply like to ask of you, your prayers. Someone wise once said that prayer moves the hand that moves the world, and I believe that. Today was a very hard day for me emotionally. A dear friend of mine, who lives on my hall, in the dorms at school attempted to commit suicide. Luckily the Lord was watching over him and our Resident Director was able to intercept him and stop him from going through with it. This came as a great surprise to me as well as the other guys on my floor seeing as this young man is like a brother to us. He is now doing much better and has been transferred from Biola into protective services for a while. I would just like to ask you all to please lift this man's heart up in prayer, since he is going through a period of great sorrow and embarrassment. Pray that Christ would truly comfort him and that he would feel the deep love of the Father, throughout this unimaginably rough season of his life. I'd also like to ask for your prayers for me as well. Though I feel a bit selfish doing so, I am very stressed. I have numerous papers to complete, presentations to give as well as 4 major finals to prepare for as well as attempt to nail down a job of some sort for the summer; all on top of attempting to love on my brother who needs his friends to surround him in love. Thank you so much. I love you all and I am so thankful to be able to have a place, such as this blog to be able to spill my guts when times are tough. Thanks for caring. Also if any of you know of any job opportunities I would be so thankful to hear from you. I just need a job for the summer and I would love that to be related to ministry, although I recognize that wherever the Lord places me I will be sharing the Gospel openly anyway. haha Thanks again. Peace and Blessings.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Recently I have been attempting to roll all my burdens upon the Lord. I have tried to see the "tests" throughout the course of my busy days. I have found that it is only possible to abide in the spirit through constant prayer; or at least a constant willingness to pray. I find that days I don't willingly ask for Jesus' grace upon my life are the days that I die. They become days filled with dishonesty, pride, slandering, lust and worst of all, a pity which holds Christ's joy ransom(partial credit to Clive Staples Lewis). As if joy was merely created to be joked out by my: "why aren't others noticing that I'm hurting inside?" For too long now I have been asking the Lord to make me a man of integrity and yet I continue to behave dissintegriously toward others. I desire to be a man of prayer and yet I do not choose to close my eyes and turn my heart toward heaven. I have begged the Lord to make me a man of my word and yet I have not even taken the time to hold fast to my commitment to each of you; which is reading your blogs. It is wrong, and for that I am deeply sorry. I now recognize that the cost of discipleship is obedience. Now instead of praying to be a man of my word and carrying on in my old ways, I will press on in honesty knowing that Christ will lead me. I am very sorry and I promise I will intensify my effort to comment and invest in each of your lives more. Thank you for your grace. May our Lord Jesus Christ bless each of your lives with His overwhelming peace and joy. Amen.